სიცოცხლის სუნთქვა - არქიმანდრიტი რაფაელი (კარელინი)

 

 sulieri cxovreba umeteswilad locvis xe-lovnebaa. wmida mamebi locvas cxovrebis su-nTqvas, sulis nervebs, adamianis sulSi Cam-aval oqros wvimas uwodebdnen; madlis uS-ret wyaros, zeciur saganZurs, romelic ada-mians yovelTvis Tan aqvs.

 locva – es gasaRebia zeciuri ierusalimis karibWisa.

 locva – es kibea, romliTac suli miwidan RvTis taxtTan adis. locva – maradiuli, ux-rwneli, Cauqrobeli zeciuri naTelia, rome-lic adamianis guls xedavs.

 locva – sxeulis aRdgomamde aRdgomaa ad-amianis sulisa.

 locva – sulis frTebia, uimisod is Tavis gulisTqmebSi da vnebebSi xoxavs, rogorc ma-tli miwaze.

 locva - Cveni sulis gasxivosnebaa Zeciuri naTliT.

 locva – RmerTTan gamudmebuli sufevaa, mo-uklebeli wyaroa naTeli sixarulisa.

 locva – es samoTxis winaswargrZnoba da winkaria.

 adamiani maradisobisTvisaa Seqmnili, misi WeSmariti samSoblo, misi mamiseuli saxli – zecaa. aq, miwaze, is devnili da mogzauria. roca adamiani Tavis daniSnulebas iviwyebs, roca eCveneba, rom misi cxovreba – mxolod mokle gzaa dabadebidan sikvdilamde, akvni-dan samaremde, - maSin is yvelaze ubeduri ar-seba xdeba dedamiwaze.

 locva – es mogonebaa dakargul samoTxeze, mimarTvaa sulisa RmerTisaken. locvisaTvis dro da manZili ar aris. Tuki locvis sit-yvebs guli gamoexmaura, maSin is mTelma ze-cam gaigo. Tuki locvis sityvebi sulis siR-rmidan amoiRvაra, maSin maT uflamde miaR-wies. Cven locvisas xSirad sabediswero Sec-domas ვuSvebT: gveCveneba, rom Cveni ZalebiT, CvendaTavad vloculobT, roca CvenTan erT-ad loculobs madlი RvTisa.

 madli – es RvTaebrivi siyvarulia, RvTa-ebrivi Zalaa, romelic adamians ixsnis, TviT "gaxseneba" locvisa, locvis survili – mad-lis moqmedebaa.

 adamians SeuZlia miiRos madlი da SeuZlia is uaryos, magram madlis "Secvla" sakuTari adamianuri ZalebiT – SeuZlebelia. Tuki ad-amiani Tvlis, rom locva mxolod Tavis ne-baze zewoliT, Tavisi azrebis koncentraci-is, Tavisi grZnobebis aRZvris, sxeulebrivi Sromis xarjze SeuZlia (metania, muxlmodre-ka), es niSnavs, rom is locvas sakuTar Rvawls miawers, Tavis adamianur unars, da maSin TviT locvis dakargva xdeba: an Cveni Zalebi ifiteba da locva ara qvaze, aramed qviSaze aSenebul SenobasaviT gaibneva, an xdeba sulis grZnobaTa aRgzneba da locvis Semdeg adamiani sulieri mSvidobis nacvlad mtkivneulad gaRizianebas ganicdis, TiTqos-da nervebi gauSiSvlda, an rac yvelaze uare-sia, meocnebe aRtacebulobis mdgomareobaSi, amay TviTtkbobaSi iZireba.

 demoni Caagonebs adamians, rom is didi mo-Rvawea, TiTqosda mis suls iavnanas umReris.  უnda gvaxsovdes uflis sityvebi: "თჳნიერ ჩე-მსა არარაჲძალ-გიც ყოფად არცაერთი." (in.15,5). locva ki - umaRlesi Semoqmedebaa sulisa, romlis winaSec mSvinvieri Semoqmedeba, mis mier Seqmnili xelovnebis SedevrebiT, ferm-krTali da arafris maqnisia.

 eklesiam locvis tipikonis (ganwesebis) da-sawyisSi daadgina locvis kiTxva suliwmidi-sadmi: mis gareSe locva mkvdari iqneba, ma-gram rogor gavigoT sad moqmedebs madli da sad – adamianuri Zalebi? Cveni sulieri grZnobebi xom ganuswavlelia: Cveni aRtaceba da ganwyoba SegviZlia sulier gancdad mivi-RoT. sakuTar gulSi RvTis madlisaTvis ad-gilis miCena SeiZleba, romlebic CvenSi mis moqmedebas xels uSlian. pirvelia – vnebia-noba, meore – ampartavneba.

 locva sinanulis grZnobis gareSe – es ara mowiwebuli saubari, aramed Tavxeduri gamow-vevaa RmerTisa. უfali wmidaa, Cven ki codvi-lni, amitom mivuaxlovdeT als da ar davi-wvaT, es mxolod sinanulis meSveobiT SegviZ-lia. siamayesTan brZola – es sakuTari uZl-urebisa da uRonobis gamudmebuli SegrZnebaa. Cven TiTqosda veubnebiT RmerTs: "me uZluri var, Sen Tavad iloce CemSi, locva TviTon maswavle da es locvac Tavadve Seiwire". ma-Sin adamiani locvaSi raRac sxvagvars igrZ-nobs: ara Tavis Zalas, aramed RvTisas. maSin is mixvdeba, rom misi suli uwin unayofo iyo, mkvdari, rogorc udabnos gaxurebuli qviSa. axla ki am udabnoSi wyaroebma amoxeTqa. aq imis gafiqrebac ki ar SeiZleba, rom ჩveni ne-ba locvas eTiSeba, - piriqiT, Cveni neba madls emorCileba, mas Tavis gulSi imarxavs, surs es madli, mis usityvo xmas yurs ug-debs, mTel didebas mas miagebs, Tavis Tavze ki, rogorc mxolod codvebis Camdenze fiq-robs. roca adamiani RmerTs mimarTavs da ambobs: "me...", RmerTi mas Tavis pawia "me"-sTan tovebs roca adamiani locvaSi eubneba Rme-rTs: "Sen...", maSin RmerTi mis uZlurebas da simwires Tavisi ZaliT aRavsebs da masTan sufevs.

 locvis safuZvelia – azri: "Sen – yovelive xar, me ki – araferi". es misi granitis saZi-rkvelia. xdeba erTgvari idumali SeerTeba RmerTisa sulTan: suli madls usmens, madli ki suls. amis Sesaxeb mociquli pavle ase am-bobs: "უმეტეს მათ ყოველთასა დავშუერ; არა მე, არამედ მადლი იგი ღმრთისაჲ" (1kor. 15,10).

 Tuki umaRlesi mizani da cxovrebis mTavari Sinaarsi morwmune adamianisaTvis unda iyos ufali, es niSnavs: sulis unari RvTisadmi mi-marTvisa, anu locva, adamianis yvela azris, sityvisa da saqmis ganmmsWvalav Sinagan Rer-Zad unda iqces. Tuki adamiani maradisobi-saTvis cxovrobs, Tavisi miwieri cxovrebiT Tavs winaswar ganimzadebs WeSmariti, sauku-no, dausrulebeli cxovrebisaTvis, maSin mi-sTvis yvelaze mniSvnelovani saqme locva un-da iyos, yvelaferi danarCeni, saSinao da sazogadoebrivi valdebulebebis CaTvliT, mxolod misTvis momzadebas emsaxureba.

 Cven yvelaze xSirad vfiqrobT, rom garegani garemoebani, gansakuTrebiT samuSao, Cvens locvas xels uSlian, magram sinamdvileSi misTvis mTavar dabrkolebas Cveni Sinagani winaaRmdegobani warmoadgenen. rogorc ZarR-vebsa da venebSi sisxlis moZraobas xels uSlis sklerozuli warmonaqmnebi, aseve locvas aferxebs ara dakavebuloba da Sro-ma, aramed sicrue da pirferoba, sizarmace da avxorcoba, metismetad mijaWvuloba miw-ier cxovrebaze.

 ra unda gavakeToT, rom Cveni valdebul-ebani, mcnebebis SesrulebasTan da uwyvet locvasTan iyos SeTanxmebuli? "mouklebel-ad ilocevdiT; yovelsa Sina hmadlobd-iT" (1Tes. 5, 17-18) – ambobs wm. pavle mo-ciquli. nu aRiqvam sakuTar saqmeebs, rogorc pirutyvis qedze dadgmul uRels, an Ralas, romelic qveyanas unda gadauxado, Semdeg ki Tavisufali dro locvas dauTmo. samuSaos ise unda uyuro, rogorc RvTisgan mocemul morCilebas, unda Seasrulo is, rogorc RvTis saxis winaSe – mTeli gulmodginebiT da keTilsindisierebiT, amasTan yovelTvis azrad gqondes, rom Cven ara xalxs, aramed TviT ufals vemsaxurebiT. Tuki Cven imisa-Tvis ar vimuSavebT, rom samuSaosgan sasw-rafod TavdaRweulebma, sulierad vicxovr-oT, aramed ise, rom misi meSveobiT RmerTs saTno veyoT, maSin TviT samuSao gaxdeba stimuli locvisaTvis, Tundac uwindelze me-ti dro, Zalisxmeva da Sroma moiTxovos. ma-Sin locvasTan SeerTebuli cxovreba, mTl-ianad misi SuqiT iqneba ganmsWvaluli, maSin moipovebs simSvides Cveni sindisi.

 sulis mTavari Zalebia – neba, goniereba da grZnoba. neba imaSi unda vavarjiSoT, rom Tavi vaiZuloT davemorCiloT gonierebas da ara nebas, neba gonebis mokavSire unda iyos da ara emociebisa da ganwyobilebisa. grZnoba unda gavwvrTnaT, ganvwmindoT vnebebisa da brma mikerZoebisagan.

 sulier cxovrebaSi tkboba – gonebisa da gulis mteria, es aris satyuara, romelsac adamiani ylapavs, rogorc Tevzi ankess.

 goneba unda vavarjiSoT locvisaTvis:

 1)  sikvdilis xsovniT;

 2) misi aRyvanebiT xilulidan uxilavisaken, nivTieridan sulierisaken, magaliTad, bune-bis an adamianis silamaziT vtkbebiT – vif-iqroT: rogori mSvenieri unda iyos maTi Se-mqmneli, rogoria sulieri, angelozTa samy-aros gamouTqmeli silamaze! mzis Suqs xed-av – sulieri sinaTle gaixsene, romelic adamianTa gulebs anaTebs. Ramis ca dainaxe – uTxari sakuTar Tavs: "raoden diadia am zeciur samyaroTa Semoqmedi! ramdeni saidum-loa dafaruli adamianisagan!"

 nebismieri sagani, nebismieri movlena Sesa-Zlebelia gonebisaTvis momavali cxovrebis, sulieri samyaros Sexsenebad gamodges. amaSi ganswavlul gonebas SeuZlia yvelafridan gakveTilebi da magaliTebi moipovos.

 imisaTvis, rom miwieriT, nivTieriT da ga-regnuliT ar viyoT damonebulni, yvela sit-uaciaSi gonebiT hkiTxe sakuTar Tavs: "ra iqneba Semdgom, rogoria yovelive amis dasa-sruli?" da dainaxav rom yovelive miwieris dasasruli – mtveri da xrwnaa da mxolod sulieria maradiuli. ukve amiT Cven ganvw-medT gonebas miwieri saxeebisagan, aRviyvanT suls RmerTisaken, misi yovelgan mefoba gvemaxsovreba, is gonebaSi gveyoleba – anu gveqneba locva. magaliTad, qalis saxis si-lamaze gvatyvevebs – hkiTxe Sens Tavs: ra iqneba oci an ocdaaTi wlis Semdeg? naoWebi saxes iarebiviT daRaraven; Tvalebi, Zvirfas qvebad rom gveCveneba, lorwos grovad iqceva, kbilebi dascviva. Semdeg ra? – sikvdili. ra mouva am adamians kuboSi ramdenime dRis Se-mdeg? – saxe gauSavdeba, gabervas daiwyebs, gvami simyrales gaavrcelebs, erTi Tvis Sem-deg ki saflavSi raRac saSineli masa iqneba, romelSic matlebi ifuTfuTeben. ai miwieri silamaze da misi dasasruli.

 Tuki Cvens Tavs mivaCvevT SekiTxvas: "ra aris Semdeg? amas ra mosdevs?" – mivxvdebiT, rom yvelaferi xiluli dasaRupadaa ganwi-ruli, rom yovelive qveyniuri – moRalate megobaria, romelic migvatovebs, rom amqvey-nad erTaderTi faseuloba – es adamianis sulia. msgavsi "savarjiSoebi" gonebas wmen-den da mas locvisaTvis amzadeben.

 cxovreba ar unda iyos uwesrigo da qa-oturi. adamiani erTbaSad ramdenime saqmes ar unda waepotinos: is TviT samuSaoSi uwesri-gobiT iqanceba, iRleba da maSin mis sulSi RvTisadmi mowiwebis nacvlad mowyinebis grZ-noba, drtvinva, Tavisi  TaviT da yvelaTi gaRizianeba Cndeba. mas eCveneba, rom dagro-vili saqmeebi veeba gorad gadaiqca, romlis gadadgmis Zalac mas ar Seswevs. amitom sa-muSao, romelsac adamiani gadadebs, an iwyebs da ar amTavrebs, mis suls gadauxdeli va-liviT awevs. locvas ara Sroma, aramed Si-nagani gafantuloba uSlis xels. wesad unda aviRoT: ar vakeToT erTdroulad ramdenime saqme. mSvidad unda vifiqroT da CvenTvis gadavwyvitoT, maT Soris romelia yvelaze mniSvnelovani, gadaudebeli da misgan daviw-yoT, viTomda is – erTaderTi saqmea, romlis gakeTebac aucilebelia. unda vebrZoloT ga-fantulobas da uyuradRebobas, rogorc Cveni sulis mtrebs.

 roca adamiani ramdenime saqmis erTad ke-Tebas Seudgeba da erTis dasrulebisTanave meoreze fiqrobs, is Tavis TavSi xasiaTis im Tvisebebs gamoimuSavebs, romelsac SeiZleba qronikuli daudevroba da unebisyofoba vu-wodoT. aseTi adamiani ver SeZlebs yurad-Rebis mokrebas locvaze: locvis ganwesebis Sesrulebisas, is mraval saqmeze da maT ga-dawyvetaze fiqrobs. misi locva dazuTxuli sityvebis meqanikur gameorebaSi gadadis, ama-sTan azrebi, rogorc daRvrili vercxlis-wylis burTulebi, yvela mimarTulebiT if-anteba. mxolod erTi saqmis dasrulebis Se-mdeg unda Seudges adamiani meores.

 axla ki locvis garegnuli mxaris Sesaxeb. adamiani Sedgeba sulis, samSvinvelisa da sxeulisagan. sxeulis mdgomareoba metad mni-Svnelovania locvisaTvis. roca adamiani Ta-vis sxeuls adunebs, maSin misi azri du-ndeba, is TiTqosda Tvlemas iwyebs. roca adamiani locvis dros gadawolilia, fexi fexze aqvs gadadebuli an daudevar pozaSi wevs, mas locvisadmi mowiweba uqreba, is fa-milarulad, TiTqos kbilebSi scriso, ise sa-ubrobs RmerTTan.

 arsebobs enis ori saxe, ori saxe TviT-gamosaxvisa: sityviT da JestiT, anu moZra-obiT. metania, muxldreka – es uxmo enaa, sadac sityva moZraobiT icvleba. es werilis saxea, romelic melniT qaRaldze ar aris dawerili, aramed TviT adamianis sxeulSia areklili da ganxorcielebuli.

 sulieri cxovrebisTvis didi mniSvneloba aqvs kontrols imaze, Tu ras ambobs adamiani: yoveli amao sityva – es misi sulis uZvi-rfasesi energiis dakargvaa, amitom xangrZ-livi da uSinaarso saubris Semdeg adamians dacarielebis da danakargis grZnoba eufle-ba. mas ekargeba locvis survili, suli ra-Racnairi nisliTa da simZimiT evseba. is sa-Zulveli xdeba sakuTari TavisTvis. danaka-rgis es SegrZneba im moTamaSis wyenasa da gamwarebas hgavs, romelic saxlSi carieli jibeebiT brundeba.

 TiToeuli cru sityva – iaraa adamianis sulis saxeზe, misi damamaxinjebeli nawibur-ia. TiToeuli dampali da binZuri sityva – ayrolebuli wylulia, rameTu ufalma Tqva, rom yoveli amao sityvisaTvis adamiani pas-uxs agebs saSinel samsjavroze, miTumetes ki codvianisaTvis: "ყოველი სიტყუაჲ უქმი რომელსა იტყოდიან კაცნი, მისცენ სიტყუაჲ მისთჳს დღესა მას სასჯელისასა" (mT. 12, 36). aq sulsa da sityvas Soris urTierTkavSiria: guli gulisTqmas warmoSobs, romlisganac sityva warmodgeba, warmoTqmuli sityva ki rogorc bumerangi, adamians ubrundeba; suli sakuTari sityvebis mTavari samizne xdeba. igive SeiZleba iTqvas Jestebisa da moZraobis enazec: maT ara mxolod Zlieri emociis gamoxatva SeuZliaT, aramed adamianis sulis faqizi moZraobebis-ac. siarulSi, sxeulis moZraobaSi, pozaSi grZnobaTa mTeli gama ixateba: sixaruli da mwuxareba, mediduri upativcemuloba da said-umlo mikerZoebani, siyvaruli da zizRi. ga-nsakuTrebuli mimikis ZaliT gamoixateba is-eTi vnebebi, rogorebicaa, mrisxaneba, SiSi da siZva. amitom adamianma iseve rogorc Tavis sityvebs, Tavisi sxeulis moZraobasac Tvali unda adevnos. pozaSi, aranakleb vidre sit-yvebSi, SeiZleba gamomJRavndes garyvnileba da masac ukuqmedeba aqvs adamianis sulze. Tuki adamiani mrisxanebaSi garegnul simSvi-des SeinarCunebs, xelebs ar damuStavs, kri-Was ar Sekravs, warbs ar Seiyris, oTaxSi ne-rviulad ar ivlis, xelebis qnevas ar dai-wyebs an Tavis vnebas raRac sxva saxiT ar gamoamJRavnebs, maSin is sxeulis mxridan mxa-rdaWeras miiRebs da adamiani male dawy-nardeba. es SeiZleba sakuTar Tavze iolad Semowmdes.

 Tuki adamiani moZraobaSi Tavisuflebas an uwminduri azrebisagan cdunebaSi meocnebe moSvebulobas ar gamoavlens, isini, rogorc Rrubeli ciskidurze, swrafad gaivlian. zog-ierTs eCveneba, rom sulieri cxovrebisaTvis garegnuls ara aqvs mniSvneloba, rom erTa-derTi, aucilebeli ram adamianisaTvis – es RvTisaTvis gulis miZRvnaa. magram maT ar esmiT, rom sxeuli – es gare samosi ar aris, aramed Cvenive nawilia, rom sxeulsa da suls Soris mWidro kavSiria, rom gulis ganwmeda - es mxolod ganzraxva da gadaw-yvetileba ar aris, es Seupovari  Sromaa, ro-melic sikvdilamde grZeldeba.

 yovelgvar ganswavlaSi iolidan gacilebiT Znelze gadasvlas vxedavT. sakuTar sxeulze kontroli – es aucilebeli pirobaa ara mxolod axaldamwyebTaTvis, es erT-erTi im qvakuTxedTagania, romlebzedac mTeli Cveni sulieri cxovrebis Senoba aRimarTeba.

 eklesiam RvTismsaxurebaSi rogorc locvis organuli nawili, ritualebisa da wes-Cve-ulebaTa ena CarTo. SeiZleba iTqvas, rom ara mxolod adamianis goneba, aramed mTlianad adamiani, rogorc sxeulebriv – sulieri ar-seba, monawileobs RvTismsaxurebaSi.

 saeklesio wes-Cveuleba – es gansakuTrebuli simboluri enaa. maSinac ki roca adamians ar SeuZlia Sesrulebuli wesi sityvis enaze ga-daitanos, anu axsnas is, Tumca masSi mona-wileobs, is eklesiis madlian velSi mainc erTveba, rogorc naTura enTeba eleqtroqse-lSi CarTvisas, Tumca Cven, arsebiTad ar viciT, ra aris eleqtroba da mxolod mis moqmedebasa da Zalas vafiqsirebT.

 wmida mamebi krZalavdnen mouridebel, uwes-rigo, aforiaqebul moZraobebs, romlebic Cvens suls uwminduri da suleluri guli-sTqmebiT avseben. am sagnis Sesaxeb maTi da-rigebebi ramdenime sityviT rom gadmovceT: adamianma Tavi mokrZalebulad da ubralod unda daiWiros. Tavis TavTan darCenisas an Zilad misvlisas unda axsovdes, rom is ma-rto araa, aramed masTan mfarveli angelozi imyofeba. wmida mamebi gvirჩeven, locvis dros gansakuTrebulad SemarTulni viyoT, fexi ar movinacvloT, sxeuli ar movadunoT. Tu adamiani Zlier daRlilia, umjobesia da-jdes da ramdenime xans ilocos.

 rac Seexeba metaniebsa da muxldrekas, es Cveni Tayvaniscemis gamoxatvaa RvTisadmi. aq moZraoba da Jesti erTgvarad sityvas avseben, mas aZliereben da aRrmaveben. locvisas sxe-uli arc modunebuli unda iyos, arc zed-metad daZabuli. pirveli adunebs, TiTqosda aZinebs, meore ki qancavs adamians. sxeuli Se-marTuli unda iyos, Sinagani mzadyofnis mdgomareobaSi, rogoric is aris xolme im samuSaos Sesrulebis win, romelsac Zalis-xmeva da siswrafe sWirdeba, roca adamiani TiTqos Tavis kunTebs SeigrZnobs, vidre maT daWimavs.

 adamiani erTiani pirovnebaa, erTiani fsi-qofizikuri mona da – erTeuli, amitom lo-cvaSi is mTeli Tavisi sulier-sxeulebrivi arsebiT unda iyos CarTuli.